A journal in which I can furiously scribble the heavily detailed, multi-layered evidence for how freaking freaked out I freaking am, because it’s all pulsing through my brain like the television news treatment of a minor natural disaster with myself as the self-appointee “expert” tasked with obsessively reporting irresponsible conjecture and repeating images of destruction as I cannibalize my own though process and descend into an unrecoverable tailspin of idiotic mental babble until I’ve taken several deep breaths, called a few friends, and written it all down, at which point I just might feel a little better until the next freaking time I freaking freak out again. A guided journal